Whoa,

Never done this in a long time! anyways, I've been sooo lazy lately, being a workaholic. I don't ever have time for myself, damn. But its okay I needa make money. Mhmm, what else?  I'm taking a stupid online that I don't need but whatever, extra credits won't hurt hah. Well I'm gonna make it short, I'll do one more later.

Life is sometimes too short..

The begining of the year wasn't all that great for a lot of people. It's really sad for those who lost their lives and for those who lost the ones they love. It's hard seeing those you love cry their hearts out. It's just hard. Hearing news left and right that this person passes away will never be the best news ever. I hate hearing it because when I do, my first question is "why them?" God doesn't wanna see anyone suffer anymore, so sometimes we all have to accept it and know that "it's going to be okay". And I'm sure that is their message also.

Last month, I was at home until I get a phone call from my boyfriend telling me, our friend Noel is gone. I was in shock, I didn't wanna believe. Until then, I still didn't believe, not until I came across his comments, and I told myself damn it is true. He was 19, we thought he was a happy man, but behind him was this sadness and madness that no one knew or he didn't bother to share. I guess his situation took a toll on him and he couldn't handle, so he decided to take his own life away. Everyone just said "how can he be so stupid", we were so mad at him. My boyfriend went to his funeral, I didn't get to go since I didn't have a ride. But he told me, in Noel's aunties speech, she said "If Noel had said his last words it would be, 'Don't be mad, it's my life'.." RIP PVT NOEL CHRISTOPHER LAGAT

This past week was also depressing, my boyfriend got a text message from his friend saying "Please keep auntie Navarro in you prayers". I ran to Lei's room and told her about it, she was in shock, we all were. She passed away on Monday. RIP AUNTY

Yesterday, I got text messages from people saying "RIP Darren Barbadillo, your now in a place with no sorrow or pain. You're in Paradise." I was also shocked because someone told me he had couple months to live. Obviously I got the wrong info, he had a couple of days. It was too soon. He had a tumor, he was going through kimo, and it got worst. RIP Darren boy.

I wanted to cry those days, but I learned not too. I learned to be happy because they are in a better place and they are in Gods hands. And I know he will protect them all from pain. But I do wish they were still here....

Why...

did it have to be me? Why my car?

I know it hapeend couple days ago, but I'm still hurting inside, I feel violated, it's like they took my heaurt out and stepped on 10x. Fuck man, if its people I know, FUCK YOU seriously, thats all I gotta say and oh YOU LOW LIFE SON OF A BITCHES! Seriously? You don't got anything better to do, well I hope god forgives you for taking my blessed rosary and other belongings, no wait actually I hope you guys die in hell. Right now I'm the coldest hearted bitch right now. I didn't deserve i, I know I didn't! Well if you guys want to know what happened, heres my blog from my myspace....

Worst day of my life.
So yesterday I decided to drive to work..and I usually park at our parking stalls which I did.To make story short, after work I decided to go to Long Drugs because I need snacks for school, I know I know, fatty. I only took 10-15 minutes in the store, come to find out my car is FUCKEN gone. I thought I was being delusional and parked it somewhere else, but I didn't right there and then I knew it was gone. I panicked and looked everywhere, called James to notify him, called everybody. Then called the dumbass cops who don't do shit to file a report. When this cop came, he didn't even get out his car all said was "come here so I can get your info" so uhhh okay I guess. My dad and sister was on their way to come see if I was okay, thankfully I was. I kept on crying to my dad because it was my first car and I had plans for it, btw I had a Dark Red Acura Integra 96' Black w/Chrome lip rims. So I went home thinking, how the hell did they do it the quick, were they stalking me, did they plan it, and I also imagined what if I walked out of the store when they were still tryna break in to my car, what if they had a gun or whatnot. I was jsut thankful I was okay.

So this morning 4/8/09 I got a call from the police department and said they found it at Waipio bike path all stripped. I was crying more because I didn't know exactly what they took. So they gave me the number for the towing crap and I called and they said they have it. I decided to go school first so I did. Headed to Stoneridge and at first this black dude was giving me attitude and kept on telling me I have to pay the tow bill, but then my car insurance was also giving me a hard time. So I was like fuck it I'm gonna pay for it. So I did, cops met up with me and I got to see my car, I really didn't wanna look.I went up to it, looked inside, and they took everything! The cop let me go inside, they took my two front seats, Panasonic CD deck, floor mats, all my tires with Black w/Chrome Lip 17" rims, my jacket, new fossil sun glasses, ON TOP OF THAT MY BLESSED RED ROSARY THE WAS GIVEN TO ME FROM MY MOM.

How fucken low people can get. I was crying so hard. Then I took what that was left which was my incurance card and registration and my hello kitty mac lip conditioner and my neices ball. So if anyone tries to sell these things to you, please let me know. All I can say is that I'm going get the last laugh.

Horrible day...

so yesterday was the worst ever.  I woke up in the morning because all of sudden I couldn't breathe.  I tried calling for my mom but it was hard.  So I tried to get out of bed and went to my mom as soon as I could.  I could barely tell her that I couldn't breathe.  I started crying hard because It hurt so much.  She asked me if I wanted to go emergency and I said yes, well at first I was contemplating because I didn't want them to stick needles in me lol.  So i got to Pali Momi hospital.  The nurses helped me right away, although I had to go through all the questions.  I went into one of the rooms where I had to get naked and put those hideous gowns.  Doctor came in and examine me.  He said everything in my body was functioning well.  Although they found out I have acute bronchitis and something else.  They gave me pain killers and prescribe me some medicine, which I have to take daily until it wares off because they told me it might happened again if I lost track of my medicine.  But boy I tell ya, it was the worst feeling ever, I honestly thought I was going to die because I didn't know what was going on.  So the doctors advised me not to go school or work for a week.  But I need to go school because I have finals, ahhh. So i feeling a little better, sore throat here and there, heavy coughs, and etc.  Well I'll kee you guys updated. tootles. <3 marie

I've been so busy...

it's not even funny.

School is driving me crazy seriously, I'm slightly failing math, which sucks because I'm actually good at it, but man I think our teacher just teaches way to fast where its like huh? Anyways, I'm passing all my other classes, which is a big relief.  I just hate fucking exams, i'm so bad at it.  In addition to that I barely have anytime for homework also because I work, go to events for spirit club.  I have no time for myself...but its okay who am I to complain? I chose this path, so I going to end it with a bang, lol.  Other than that, life is treating me great. Despite all the hard work that is given, I still manage to take a little time to myself.  Btw, that is also the reason why I barely go on this thing, even myspace.  Oh well thats it for now, I'm too tired to type more. Okay, Peace & God Bless.

It's been awhile..

since i've been on this thing.

lately i've been outta this whole internet thing...idk its really nothing new to me anymore..

Anyways...whats new? Nothing much, going back to school on tuesday. Not excited much but I just can't wait for spring break if we even have one. Mhhmm..my nephew Kaleb is coming thats excited, another boy in the family. What else? I guess that's it..alrighty then tootles.

Christmas..

it's that time of year again.

this time around it was great, just one thing RELATIONSHIP. I don't know honestly. Anyways, how did my christmas eve go...

-woke up, clean & fixed my room

-went to james house for a bit

-then went to work for four hours, haha i know why did I.

-received a card, christian dvd, and 50 dollars from our boss. THANKYOU

-went to james house to wrap last minute presents for my sisters

-then went to my house, we broguth shayna and pepper, we ate a little

-went to his uncles house and had more food, YUMMY. played with Jaiven because he's the most handsome filipino, black puerto rican i know haha.

-went back to his house for a while then went back to mine, got ready for midnight pass and this is where it all happen.

We got to church at 11:00 and NO SEATS what soever, there were but people were reserving seats for other people like big groups of friends and family. and i'm thinking to myself why the hell are these people reserving ITS CHURCH for crying out loud. So me and james ended sitting outside where we don't see the priest nor could we hear him.  When my sister came, I told her that we should leave before the bread, because i couldn't stand sitting outside in the cold and it was drizzling.  I know whoever might read this is probably gonna be like omg get a grip but this is how i feel.  I mean I know a lot of people were bummed they had to sit outside.  But I thought to myself, I love god and I love going to church, but just this one time I didn't want to be there, i'd rather be with my family having noche buena than sitting outside practically listening to nothing. And what makes it worst is that me and james were arguing, actually until now.  That's a different story......But omg never again I'm going to midnight mass at OLPH, or maybe i'll try again. Other than that I'll just attend OLGC.  Oh, btw MORE THAN HALF OF THE PEOPLE that were there doesn't even go to church on daily basis which I find disrespectful, I mean your gonna go church just because its christmas?  Sorry but I had to vent it out because me and my sister were really upset.  So we decided to leave early and spent christmas with my family, which made the highlight of my christmas, i love them.

-We got home and started out secret santa, it was awesome! I got new peep toes, yeahhh for clubbing or work!

-then played games and we actually bought prizes for the winner, we had like jamba juice, starbucks, D&B, and zippys gift card. I know my family is awesome!

okay thats it.

-I got what I wanted for christmas.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS